I don't know about you but sometimes I get 'all in my feelings' and one night I was just feeling all sorts of emotions so I decided to write a letter to myself. I didn't have any rhyme or reason I just started writing whatever came to my mind. Once I finished I was pleased with what came out and actually felt a lot better, so I signed and dated the letter in hopes on the days when I get down I can go back to it, read it and gain some kind of encouragement when I'm feeling down.
Well today was one of those days and as I re-read the letter I was actually surprised at some of the things that I had written but was glad that it served it's purpose at encouraging me so I decided that I would share it with you all in hopes that you could find something in here that you could relate to and give you some hope when you're feeling down.
Hope you like it! :)
Dear Twix,
Despite everything, you are beautiful! However, this doesn't mean you're perfect. Truth be told, you are far from it. You can be selfish, rude, and just downright annoying. You are also kind, with a sincere heart. You truly care about others in a deep way and although your timid ways and insecure feelings get you down at times, don't let them keep you down forever. You have value and are very important no matter what anyone tells you. There will be days when you'll wake up feeling on top of the world. A smile will radiate from from the inside out and you'll go through the day with high and lifted spirits. Other days you'll wake up wanting to turn right back over unwilling to get up and start the day. Some days you'll get to roll back over, throw on whatever and laze about. Most days you won't and will have to don a mask of smiles just to make it through the day. Take both types of day in stride and despite how you feel, never ever forget to thank God for allowing me to see the new day and recognize the fact that He didn't have to let you see it.
Remember that you have flaws which make you human and unique. Realize that the same feelings that make you happy and excited are the same feelings that make you vulnerable enough to make you sad, angry, or scared and that its okay to feel any combination of them at any time. Letting them show does not make you weak or silly. Your opinion counts because its yours and no one else's. Express it!
No matter how lonely you get you're never alone. God is always with you. He'll love you when you think no one else will. No matter what happens in your life God will stay by your side. Nothing will happen that He can't handle so just trust and believe in Him. Stay prayerful. Be sure to love yourself because no one ever can or will be you. You are unique and God made you you for a reason, he makes no mistakes, so don't beat yourself up when you do. He's got your back.
Feel free to learn and grow how you see fit. You only get one life so live it to the fullest. You deserve all the happiness you can stand and will need all the hope and faith to make it through good and bad days (and trust me there will be plenty of them).
Don't be afraid to admit you worry about what others think about you while at the same time, remembering the opinion you have for yourself is the one that matters the most.
Live, laugh and love. Through good and bad, happy or sad. Cry when you feel like it and when you can't let your words be like your teardrops on a page.
You're worth it. You're priceless. You're: a harmonious, chaotic mix that blends into imperfect perfection.
Just as you are
Be grateful and blessed
All my Love,
Twix
Friday September 17, 2010 4:03 a.m.
When I wrote this I wasn't necessarily going through a rough time in my life. Actually for the most part everything was seemingly good. Since that time my 'world' has turned upside down and things are completely different. I've lost a lot of things that I once held dear to me and there are moments when I just feel like giving up. Even though I didn't know this at the time I wrote this letter has really come in handy through these tough times and although it doesn't exactly fix any of the bad things that have happen in my life since then, it does let me know that these hard times will not be around forever and I have to do my part to stay strong during this time in my life. I hope I make you guys because this is no where near easy, but I still have hope that everything will work out for the best.